I’ve acknowledged that I need to grow career wise.  This includes going back to school and getting a more stable position/job.  The going back to school is currently on the must do list.  In terms of career, I’m kind of at a stand still.  I think I may need to go back to the vision board.

In my current position, I have watched my entire team move on within the company or externally.  I report to work everyday without fail and want to do more. What can I do here?  With over a decade of healthcare experience, a couple years as an administrative assistant and 2+ in social media, I really don’t know which way to go.  This assignment hasn’t yielded an optimal lateral move for a single mother of the high school junior.  So, I took a leap and applied for an admin assistant position.  It provides a more traditional work day and full benefits of being a core member of this company.

That was almost 2 weeks ago.  I was feeling confident in my chances to secure this position.  However, I knew I had to continue on in my current position no matter what happens.  The time came and went that I was informed I would have feedback and I didn’t hear anything.  I didn’t want to stress about it, even though I wanted it more than anything right now.  Then in the twilight of night and probably my second dream, the hiring manager informed me I didn’t get the job.  How could I hold on to that?  I believe in the subconscious messages, thoughts and signs.  After this occurrence, I let this option go.  In the meantime, what am I to do now.

The reality of this job is that it’s contract.  It lacks some fundamental benefits important to growth retirement planning, tuition assistance, internal movement and a base salary.  These are all important to me.  I’ve experienced the advantages of having these offers through a company.  Then there is the feeling of not being included in the core of the company.  I feel indispensable.

At this point, I have two questions for myself:

• Can you stay and work on other projects to satisfy your need for a change? or
• Do you keep looking to find the things you value from a company?

This decision may be one of the hardest I’ve had since being here.  I truly like this position but on the other hand who am I fooling. I need security at this stage of my life.  Let’s face it once again, I’m a single mother with a child aspiring to go to college.  Some of that money is going to come out of my pocket.  I need more!

Whatever I decide I’ll still be smiling!